Almost half way done!!!

Well I am 19 weeks pregnant today. Our baby (that we found out was a boy) will be here real soon. Travis leaves for Iraq next month, so I am trying my hardest to be strong. I just want to break down and cry when I think of him being gone so long. I want baby Leo to know his daddy, but it is gonna be impossible.

So far so good!

I am currently in my 12th week of pregnancy, as soon as I finish this week i will be in my second trimester!

Everything has gone so smoothly so far, I couldnt be happier. I never got morning sickness, no spotting, and very little cramping. Our little one is doing great. I got a doppler so I can hear the babys heartbeat whenever i want! It is so amazing to put the thing to my belly and hear my baby moving around inside me.

Travis will be home from training this Friday or Saturday! I am so excited he has been gone for over 2 months now. I cant wait for him to be able to come to my appointments with me, and see for himself this little miracle inside my body. A miracle that his and my love created.

Im Back

Well readers....

Sorry i have been off of here for so long. First we were in the states and we dont have a computer right now. We are going to buy one next month so I will be able to update you all more as soon as we do.

As for my conception journey....

I am pregnant again!!!

The baby is due March 17th. We have not told all our family or friends yet because of course we are scared that miscarriage may occur again. As of today though, I feel things are gonna turn out pretty good. I had an ultrasound today and got to see my little one for the first time. Right now he is no bigger then my pinky nail, but I am already in love.

Ready to go home!

Well my wonderful, gorgeous, sexy, amazing husband is home! Finally after 16 days of absence. I missed him so much, I cant begin to describe it. When I finally got to hold him against the fluttering in my stomach would not stop. He is such an amazing man, and I am a lucky lucky girl.

Now that he is home we are getting ready to go to the states for 16 days. We are excited to be going home and seeing all our loved ones after a year of being gone!

CANT WAIT!!!!!

Time is all I got....

Well 5 days till Trav comes home and 11 days till we fly home. Time seems to be dragging by slowly. I am actually visiting a friend at Graf right now and it has been nice to be out of my house. I may even get to see Trav for a few minutes tomorrow. Graf is actually where he does his training and when they go to shower and to the store they get a few hours off from training. Hopefully I can meet up with him. I miss him like crazy. I have been such a baby about the whole thing too. I hope this is no indication of how I am gonna be when he is in Iraq....probably is.

So Sad...

Travis left today for training. He will be gone for 16 days. It was so hard dropping him off this morning. I know 16 days isn't really a long time, but him leaving just made me realize that the deployment is coming up soon, and I know I will miss him so much.

As he hugged and kissed me good bye he had a deep look of worry on his face. Not because he would be sleeping outside in a cold German training field, but because he hates seeing me hurt. I tried my hardest not to cry as I hugged him, but once he was out of the car, tears slid down my cheeks.

I knew when Trav joined that he would be gone alot, I am just not ready for it. Since we moved over here to Germany in July '07, I havent spent more than 1 night away from him. It is still a little hard being in a foreign country, but with Travs absence, it is even harder.

He is my heart, my soul, and my life. He is the air that I breathe, and my life is pointless without his love. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him, but first we have to get through this damn deployment!

Strange...

Well, this has been the strangest cycle. I went ahead and took the Clomid days 3-7 and was expecting to O around day 14 or 15 like I did last cycle. I think the miscarriage threw everything off though. I got my first positive OPK on CD 12, but no temp rise so no O. I finally got another one today, along with a temp drop, so I am thinking this might be the real thing.

The thing that sucks is Travis is leaving for Field Training tomorrow for 2 weeks, so tonight is our only chance to Baby Dance ;-) I am just praying we dont miss it this cycle, and are succesful...Keep your fingers and toes crossed with me please!

(((Hugs)))
-Jamilah